Puttin Your iPod On Shuffle............

can be dangerous some times if you are in a room that is suppose to be quiet. Here are a list of songs that are very difficult NOT to sing along to when you are sitting in the computer lab at school. Oh, and when you read the songs, please do not judge or mock. Keep in mind that I was a child in the 80s and I grew up in Canada.

1. Somebody by Bryan Adams (I dare you to try not to sing along with the chorus)
2. Love Bites by Def Leppard (who hasn't not wanted to touch their baby too much)
3. Living on a Prayer by Bon Jovi (a great song about Tommy and Gina)
4. Rio by Duran Duran (no comment necessary)
5. Baby Don't Forget My Number by Milli Vanilli ("Baby call my line, call me any time")
6. Heaven in Your Eyes by Loverboy ("I never want this feeling to end!!)
7. Go For A Soda by Kim Mitchell (Only those living north of the border will recognize this song, I could also add the song "Patio Lanterns" to this list since I am now singing that one in my head.)
8. Maria by Ricky Martin (quality)
9. You Are by Lionel Richie (yes, I am a nerd and like Lionel Richie, but it is a very catchy chorus)
10. More Than A Feeling by Boston (Can't hit the high notes, but it's a great song to sing along to.)

Fall???

I love fall, it is my favorite season. I love that crisp feeling in the air. I love watching the leaves change color. Ryan and I started dating in the fall, so it always reminds me of that time. I am not a fan of the hot Utah summers, so I love it when it gets cooler. Of course, I really love that fall leads to great things like Halloween, Thanksgiving and CHRISTMAS!!! It was 88 degrees today (31 C if you are following along at home). Even though the calendar says that it's fall and the leaves on the mountains just east of our house are turning colors, we are still wearing shorts. So, since it was such a gorgeous day, I decided to take Braxton and the girls (our neighbors, Courtney and Kara) to the park after school. I sat on a blanket and did my homework while they played, looked for and found acorns and enjoyed the sunshine. I do keep wondering though, when will my "crispy" air be here?

The Rollercoaster

I have been struggling with whether or not to blog about this. But I decided that writing and talking about things is very therapeutic, so I guess this post is more for me than the three people who will actually read it. Weeks ago, Ryan and I were told by our agency that a birthmother wanted to meet us. She was still trying to make a decision on which couple to choose and it was between us and another couple. So, last week, we met her. I won't go into too much information about her, because I want to respect her privacy, but she was wonderful. A very courageous and loving person. I really admire her. Ryan and I felt really good about this meeting and tried not to get our hopes up too high because really it wasn't a done deal. We wanted to use this meeting as a learning experience. But, of course we wanted this child to be ours, so we couldn't help thinking about "what if" situations. So, on Wednesday during dinner, our caseworker called. The birth mother decided that the other couple was a better match. My heart broke into a million pieces. It's a strange feeling to be so upset about losing something that was never really ours. Ryan and I have spent the last few days just looking at each other and not really saying much because what could we say? Now that things have sunk in, I feel okay with it. I am happy for this amazing birth mother who can sleep at night, knowing that her baby will be raised in the family where she knows he belongs. I am happy for this couple who wanted this baby just as much as we did and they have now found the new member of their family. I am still sad for us, but I know that the child that God has chosen to come to our family will some day be here. (I just wish I knew when and from where he/she will come.) I can't lose sight of the fact that we are doing the right thing. But I will say that the whole adoption process is more emotional and stressful than any fertility drug or procedure that I have been through. I am glad that I know people who have survived this rollercoaster ride and tell me that it is so worth it. So, I will now renew my ticket on the adoption rollercoaster and let it ride.

Homecoming

Homecoming Game Fireworks

This evening was Weber State's Homecoming game they played Dixie State. I was a little torn about who to cheer for. I spent 2 very fun and glorious years at Dixie. St. George, Utah is a great place for an 18 year old, fresh out of high school to live and socialize. I guess study too, although I did more socializing than studying back then. (Smile to myself) Anyway, I am now a student at Weber and I really enjoy it, it has made me remember that I actually like going to school (it's amazing how your grades improve when you don't have 5 room mates and a busy social life). Weber is also where Ryan got his MBA, so I figure that I have paid them enough money over the years, that I should cheer for them. They owe me a win, right?? In the back of my mind, though I still wanted Dixie to do well. I guess either way, my team was going to win. Weber did end up winning, 44 to 7.

Go Weber Go!!!! (and Dixie too)

Okay this picture has nothing to do with football, but I just had to take it. A girl sitting next to us was wearing these very comfortable shoes, I think I will get a pair for the next game.

Ryan and Braxton at the game.

Braxton and Weber's Mascot

Braxton and Ryan with the little Wildcats that the cheerleaders were throwing to the crowd.

The Game

Final Score

11 Years Ago Today......

Ryan and I started dating. We fell in love while watching "So I Married An Axe Murderer" in Mare's parent's basement. And as Ryan always says, I haven't been able to get rid of him since. Who knew that my life would change forever that day and that I would be happily married years later. Thanks to Rigo for getting us together on that day!!!

Labor/Labour Day

We went to bed at 4 am this morning. Ryan and I started watching Season 4 of "24" and just couldn't go to bed until we were at the point where our eyes were bleeding. About 4 hours later, I woke up to the sound of hail hitting my kitchen sky light. It rained most of the day today, so Ryan and I decided that instead of wasting away on the couch watching Jack Bauer save the day, that we would clean our basement (which is unfinished). What a great feeling it is to walk downstairs and actually feel like you don't need a tetanus shot afterwards. It looks great and I always feel good when I get to throw some things away too. I wish that we could have gone and done some fun "end of summer" activity outside, but I had fun just to hanging out with my boys today.